Jaxy Chunk-Chunks

I realize that I documented Maddox's first months more regularly than I have Jaxon's.  So this post will be completely devoted to our little guy, Jaxy.  First, we have given him several nicknames including but not limited to: Jackie, Jax, Jaxy, Chunk-chunks, Stink-stinks, Chunkas, Grumpy Baby, Baby, and probably a ton more that I can't think of right now.  Jaxy is the epitome of a mama's boy.  He cannot take his eyes off of me and stares at me pretty much the whole day.  He always wants me to be holding him and usually he also wants me to be nursing him.  Obviously, I don't hold him all day long so he spends a lot of time whining and crying.  It's not a full-on cry but it's a very annoying, grunting, whining cry.  Jaxy has no desire to crawl because in his mind, he shouldn't even be on the floor.  He also has no desire to eat solids probably because he thinks I should be nursing him all day.  He definitely knows what he wants and when he doesn't get it, he lets everyone know with his temper.  If I take something away from him that he wants to play with, he instantly screams and cries until I give it back.  He has started to play with toys and it's really cute.  His idea of playing with a toy consists of grabbing it and putting it in his mouth then shaking it, then putting it in his mouth again.  He has reached the grabbing stage and has already gotten food, poop, and soap on his hands.  Although Jaxy can be particular and demanding, he is the biggest sweetheart I have ever met and just melts our hearts with his smile.  He is very social and whenever people come over or I'm in a group talking holding him, he stares and smiles during the conversation like he knows what's going on.  He is very ticklish under his neck and I can always make him laugh by kissing him there.  And his laugh is contagious.  Jaxy has very sensitive skin and has had severe cradle cap since birth.  It started out at dandruff, then progressed to oily scaly flakes, and then moved down to a red bumpy rash over his sideburns.  He also has had diaper rash a lot.  Jaxon has a huge head and big ears that stick out and humongous cheeks.  But when you put it all together, he is the cutest!  He is a fantastic sleeper and does so well at nights.  He can sleep through Maddox screaming and Allan turning on lights and shutting doors.  As long as he is right next to me, he stays asleep.  He still nurses a lot in the night but I'm sure part of it is being in a new place.  Jaxon loves his feet and always reaches for them when he first lays down.  He also loves listening to me sing.  He will just stare at me and smile whenever I am singing.  As a mother, having a second baby with a toddler was a very difficult transition.  I often feel guilty for not spending as much "quality" time with Jaxon as I did with Maddox.  I probably have not held Jaxon as much as I held Maddox either.  We have moved two times in Jaxon's short little life, the most recent move was across the country.  I have felt frustrated with the fact that I can't hold Jaxon all day and also, that because I don't, we all get to listen to a baby crying.  It has worn on me some days and I feel bad about that.  I don't know why he is that way because as my brother-in-law put it, I "don't hold him all the time and he still cries, so he must have been born that way." I think that Jaxon isn't needy but is my own personal reminder to slow down and focus on what's important.  I will never get this time back.  Jaxon is only a baby now and he is completely obsessed and in love with me.  It won't be like that for very much longer.  So for now, I try to enjoy and appreciate how much he needs me and only me.  I love my chunky baby and I am so grateful for his perfect personality.